Floating

By Penny Perry

 

Mother couldn’t have known what to do.
She was only twenty-five,
drove her big sister, Leona, six weeks pregnant
to the doctor’s in L.A.

Leona squinted at California bungalows,
backyards with orange trees.
She thought about her husband home worrying,
her baby waiting for her.

She told my mother about her screenplay,
a murder in the Braille room of the public library.
Then, she sat silent, her long fingers tangled like kelp.

The doctor glanced at his medical license
framed on the wall behind him,
said he was afraid to use ether.
Leona jutted her famous Heyert jaw:
“My friend Ruth told me to insist.
With ether I’ll float above the pain.”

It was hot that June morning, 1942.
No air conditioning. My mother
in the waiting room thumbed through magazines.
Big-eyed Loretta Young on the cover of Life.

It happened fast. Ether, a busy housewife,
pulled down the shades.

The doctor waved my mother in.
White face, head back, Leona was no longer breathing.
The ribbon in her dark hair floated in the breeze of a fan.

 


Penny Perry currently has poems in Earth’s Daughters, Lips, California Quarterly, Patterson Literary Review and the San Diego Poetry Annual. Garden Oak Press will publish my novel, Selling Pencils and Charlie in Spring 2020. “Floating” was previously published in Penny Perry’s poetry collection, Santa Monica Disposal & Salvage (Garden Oak Press, 2012).

Photo credit: Photo by Ava Sol on Unsplash.

Mamichu

By Robert Walton

 

“Mamichu, it’s cold!”

I looked at Ivar. I looked at his knobby lump of a head, at his lips lying beneath his broken nose like twin dead slugs, at his eyes glistening beneath his granite ledge of a brow, eyes so small I never knew their color. There was no pleasure in looking at him. I looked away. “Why do you say this?”

“Because the wind cuts like a gypsy blade.”

“No, why do you say ‘mamichu’? What is mamichu?”

“Just a curse—a Zagreb curse for when you have to look up to see hell.”

“What does it mean?”

Ivar’s brow lowered, extinguishing his eyes. “It’s the worst curse of all.”

“The worst of all?”

“The worst!”  He chuckled like a diesel engine starting on a frozen morning. “It blasphemes sisters, mothers, grandmothers even.”

“Oh,” I recoiled in mock horror, “even grandmothers! Saints preserve us!”

Ivar shrugged. “It should be reserved for the worst of the worst. I say it about the wind, but I don’t mean it, not really.”

“You don’t mean it? Why say it?”

“Habit. Curses become a habit. The morning wind, this camp, they’re not so bad. My grandfather told me of the true gulag, Stalin’s gulag. One in twenty lived. My grandfather was the one.”

“Bah! Old men’s stories. Stalin’s gulag couldn’t be worse than here.”

“Peter, do we have soup?”

“The soup is snot.”

“But we have the snot.”

I did not reply.

“Do we have bread?”

“The bread crawls with weevils.”

“But we have the weevils. Munch them. Savor the snot. You live, man. You live! This Putin camp is paradise. We could be in America, in a ‘tender care center’!”

“Ha! Mar-a-Lago, maybe.”

A troop of guards carrying Kalashnikovs approached the gate. Two dragged a man between them. The camp commandant followed behind. Six guards peeled off, three to either side, and leveled their weapons. Two more slung their rifles and opened the gate. The prisoner’s feet made twin furrows in the mud as he was pulled into the compound and dropped on his belly.

Three hundred men in the compound stood motionless.

“Who is it?” I whispered.

“Yuri—our mate.”

“How can you tell? His face is gone.”

“It will heal. Believe me.”

The guards turned and paced back through the gate. Ivar stepped forward then. He went to Yuri, knelt, rolled him gently onto his back and cradled his head.

The camp commandant stared at Ivar. He was a short, slender man, like a banker or a pimp—a man whose work is to make others work.

“Drop him.”

Ivar didn’t move.

“Drop him.”

Ivar stroked Yuri’s blood-matted hair. “Outside the wire, we are yours. Inside the wire— we may care for each other as we can. It is the law of the camps. The unwritten law.”

“I am the law.”

Ivar didn’t reply, but continued to cradle Yuri’s head in his battered hands.

“You’re the one called Ivar?”

“I am.”

The commandant nodded to the guards. “Bring him.”

Two guards handed their weapons to men standing beside them. Four more aimed vaguely at the motionless prisoners. All six entered the compound. The two gripped Ivar.

Ivar glanced at me. “Peter?”

I nodded.

Then he carefully laid Yuri’s head on the mud and rose on his own. When the gate shut behind them, we were forgotten. A dozen others followed me to help Yuri.

They took Ivar, but they did not bring him back. Only his screams returned—until they ceased.

A line of thirty guards formed in front of the wire the next morning. The camp commandant—chin lifted, eyes bright— stepped in front of them and stared at us. It was a challenge.

Mamichu.

It may have drifted on a forest breeze from pine needles nearby, or sparked from sunlight glinting off barbs on the wire.

Perhaps I whispered, “Mamichu.”

“Mamichu, mamichu.” We prayed, “Mamichu.”

“Mamichu, mamichu.” We chanted, “Mamichu.”

Raw throats opened wide and we roared, “Mamichu. Mamichu!”

Mamichu.

 


Robert Walton is a retired teacher and a lifelong mountaineer and rock climber, with many ascents in the Sierras and Pinnacles National Monument, his home crags. His writing about climbing has appeared in the Sierra Club’s Ascent. His novel Dawn Drums won the 2014 New Mexico Book Awards Tony Hillerman Prize for best fiction, first place in the 2014 Arizona Authors competition, and first place in the historical fiction category of the 2017 Readers Choice Awards. Most recently, his short story “Uriah” was published in Assisi, a literary journal associated with St. Francis College in Brooklyn. Learn more about Robert at his website and follow him on Facebook.

“The New Order” painting is by Noel Counihan, 1942, National Gallery of Australia.

At the Funeral of 50 Barefoot Men

By Amirah Al Wassif

 

once upon a time
there was an ancient place
called “Amon” village
that very far spot
where everybody talks
about the river legend
that very far spot
where everybody knows
how to distinguish
the smell of fresh bread
there, at the Amon village
where all the folks live
in their dreams
and the blazing sun cries
against the face of heaven
there, where the poor sweeper
drowns in the colors of the rainbow
and the great brown mountains
announce their upper secrets
to the mass grave
in the Amon village
where everybody talks
about the river legend
and the real tale of
50 barefoot men
in the ancient village
all people are storytellers
and all of them say
the same story
which starts with
once upon a time

there were 100 men
lived together in the same village
but 50 of them were barefoot
and the other 50 had fancy shoes!
50 men sweeping the streets
and 50 men making the bread
50 ones looking for more!
50 shoes in luxury leather
and 50 toes inflamed and cracked

the river recognized the difference
between the shoes and the toes
then it made a good decision
according to nature rules
and the river understood
the difference between
the torn clothing and the perfect ones
then it made a good decision
according to nature rules

on the ragged edge, all the people walk
under the boiling sun
all people talk
and there were two kinds of talking
talking from shoe to shoe
and talking from toe to toe
and the river didn’t love that kind of speech
so, it made a good decision
according to nature rules

50 barefoot men carrying
their empty pots
their facial bones
tell you about long age of bitterly
shabby dresses, fearful eyes
ancient faces full of pimples
much sweat
and shaky hands

50 barefoot men bearing their pain
looking for a way
to protect their feet
from another pain
but the shattered glass
everywhere

the dispossessed people died
and the rest were alive around the river
laughing, jumping, drinking
but the river has a sense of justice
so, it made a good decision
according to the nature rules
and        dried up!

 


Amirah Al Wassif is a freelance writer and author. She has written articles, novels, short stories poems and songs. Five of her books were written in Arabic and many of her English works have been published in various cultural magazines. Amirah is passionate about producing literary works for children, teens and adults that represent cultures from around the world. Her first book, Who Do Not Eat Chocolate was published by Poetic Justice Books, and her latest illustrated book, The Cocoa Book and Other Stories was recently released by Breaking Rules Publishing.

Photo by Sofia Truppel on Unsplash.

People Keep Bothering Me with Details

By Pedro Hoffmeister

 

It’s beginning to snow in Tucson and it’s 65 degrees in Seattle, Washington
in February
But our president says…
He’s tweeting about…

And we should listen to him because he’s the best president we’ve had

this entire year.

That’s a fact. He’s our man. Our leader.

Another fact:
Lori Loughlin, Felicity Huffman, other celebrities have paid money to get their children into some of the most privileged universities, Southern Cal, The Ivies,
where the reported rape rate is higher than at nearby public schools,
Where freshman girls rush sororities, visit fraternities, trip and fall into date-rapists’ arms
But it’s okay
because some of those freshman girls look 13 when they’re 18,
look like
kids

and we all know kids don’t matter – at least not specifically – because there are so many of them.

Try this: Have you ever attempted to think of every single child on earth at the same time?

Exactly.
It’s  too overwhelming             like
trying to name
the name of every celebrity I’ve ever read about.

But children
without names that anyone will learn,
– people keep telling me this –
are in detention centers, Southwest Key in Phoenix, or
Southwest Key in Tucson, or Southwest Key in Youngtown, Arizona
Boring company name – if you ask me,
Boring white vans driving children through boring black gates,
They can do better.

People tell me that a different nameless child is picking the Uzbek cotton that will go into the tongue of my Nike shoes, but the tag on the shoes never says
MADE BY A CHILD’S HANDS
And that stuff is regulated by governments, so this story can’t be true
And anyway
I’m grateful because my kicks will look flawless.

Meanwhile, Asian children (it doesn’t matter where – they all look the same, be honest, they really, really do)
Asian children are wiping
anti-scratch chemicals onto the glass faces of Samsungs, ipads, iphones…
The supervisors in the factories saying something like:

“Dip the rag into the solution, wipe it across the screen, make sure to cover the entire surface, set the glass onto the belt – carefully – don’t touch the front with your grubby fingers. Now dip the rag again…”

These kids are careful – thank God – they care about quality

I’m told
these factories rotate their children every six weeks to let their hands recover from the chemicals – which is nice –
they let the children’s fingerpads and palms heal.
or they replace the children with a new crop – they’re thoughtful about things like that,
like crop rotations to keep our Southern soil healthy.
And I understand that we have to keep the products healthy – that’s what matters – no matter how hard the labor is
Plus, the children are a renewable energy source,

My friend Bill always says, “The dream of America
is a dream of small, willing hands.”

Which is funny

But this evening – all across the United States, and seriously, not funny – we’re watching our people talk about their feelings on The Bachelor
I just feel that…
I’m developing feeling for…
and these feelings are just so…

The thing I love about this show:
No one on this show wastes our time talking about
Authors
Painters
Poets
Activists

They understand that we need to take a break from TOO MUCH THINKING

And this show lets me put myself in The Bachelor’s shoes, stare out at all those women who are available to me

Hannah G., will you accept this rose?

No, actually,
Hannah B. is way skinnier
Ooh, Hannah B. in a bikini…

Hannah B., will you accept this rose?

I’ve noticed that roses on my phone look just as real as the roses in my neighbor’s yard when
I’m looking through my front window,
Realer roses
Truer

I like rose filters,
Which make me think of rose emojis

And emojis remind me of my friend KT who hates emojis – for some stupid reason or another – and doesn’t understand why the emoji movie is so funny
KT,
one of those people who tells me that
Foxconn used Chinese teen interns for 11-hour workdays to produce the iphone X.
Tells me this story twice even after I tell her that
Apple already released a statement that made it clear:
The Chinese teen interns worked voluntarily.

I do like factoids like this:
Professor E.O. Wilson discovered that the collective weight of all ants on earth matches the collective weight of all humans.

He calls the two species symbiotic
somehow
We rise,
we rise,

Like we’ve got diamonds at the meetings
Of our…
Wait, what are the physical characteristics of ants? Or physiological?
Psycho-spiritual?

What I don’t know:
Are ants spiritually and theologically aligned with my religion?

What I do know but I really DON’T care about:
Proceeds from mining for US electronics in the Congo have funded a civil war.

Please don’t tell me about that again
because where even is the Congo? Africa somewhere?

Here’s a question that matters to the people I care about the most:

Are you a part of a meal service, and – if so – which one?

Along with things I don’t care about, there are people I don’t care about as well
Or people I just don’t like
For example:
Stan from IT said something about “Hi-Def drone footage of the fracking fields of Canada” as I was searching music videos on Youtube with my friend at work, Susan.
Susan and I both laughed SO hard.

Stan said:
“What’s the matter?
or better yet,
What else matters?”

And I said to him:
“I matter.
I’m sure I matter.”
Then I looked at Susan and thought of something really smart to say:
“I matter because I know enough about science to be sure that I’m made of matter,
get it?”
Then Susan and I laughed hard again.

But Stan didn’t, and that’s what’s wrong with him. He doesn’t get things.

This is also annoying – and on the same topic:

In my Twitter feed the other day, someone Retweeted:

Is all the matter in the universe finite reconstructive
or infinite dimensional?

 


After publishing books with Penguin, Random House, and Simon & Schuster, Pedro Hoffmeister just self-published a collection of essays titled Confessions of the Last Man on Earth Without a Cell Phone, so he could say anything he wanted to say. No content editors nixing “questionable content.” No publicists’ input on what sells. Just strong personal opinions, satire, and humor.

Amplifier poster art by Chip Thomas, photographer, public artist, activist and physician who has been working between Monument Valley and The Grand Canyon on the Navajo nation since 1987. Enjoy more of his activist and collaborative artwork here and his photography here.

Man with a Knife

By Beth Levine

 

Imagine
that this letter S
floats off the page
becomes a strong
rope
that wraps your hands together behind
your back, like officers do
before putting someone in
the back of a police car.

Imagine
that this letter S floats
off the page and becomes a second
strong rope
one end wraps
around your
left leg
the other hoists you up from
where you are reading this poem so
you are
hanging
upside
down.

Imagine
a man coming toward you
knife in hand
pointing at your throat.
You see
blood on his knife
blood on his hands.
There is no
possible escape.
No one to call on
for help.
No way to free
yourself.
You are
trapped.
Alone.

Imagine
how your heart
desperately races as fast
as a jackhammer and your body shakes
like an off-kilter washing machine,
and you can’t seem to breathe and
helpless tears well-up.

Imagine
how you beg for
your life, for
mercy, but your voice is smaller
than you want it to be,
like when you try to wake
from a scary dream
and you scream, but it is not audible,
not rescuing you
from the nightmare and
you keep pushing the air out
until the sound bursts from your lungs.

Imagine
how the man
keeps coming.
You try
to move him, to
touch his heart, but
his eyes are
vacant and he keeps moving
toward you,
knife in hand.
You wonder how he can be
so cold.
You wouldn’t
ever
ever
do this to another.
You couldn’t
ever
disregard their pleas.

Or could you?

Imagine
bacon.

Imagine
ice cream,
your down comforter,
zoos.

Imagine
your leather shoes,
and eggs.

Imagine
chicken wings.

Now you are the man with the knife.

 


Beth is a psychotherapist and an animals rights activist. She shares her life with two dogs, and enjoys hearing bird songs and being in nature. In her work, whether poetry, art, or both, she helps the marginalized be seen and heard and hopes to contribute to social change by raising awareness.

Photo by Kai Oberhäuser on Unsplash.

The Gun-Seller

By DS Levy

 

A young man travels out of state where it’s possible to buy a gun, no questions asked. He buys an AK-47. The transaction is easier than getting the driver’s license that allows him to navigate across the desert highway. If you want his story, read his manifesto on Instagram. This story is unbelievable, as are all true stories. The man who sells the gun has a daughter who attends the same university as the young man who buys the gun (hereafter known simply as “the shooter”). One morning, the shooter storms the campus, and as he scatters shots randomly the gun-seller’s daughter comes out of her English class and in a synchronous flash that Hollywood would turn into a dramatic slo-mo shot steps into the path of a bullet. Killed instantly. The young man continues his rampage, his AK-47 a scythe mowing down anything that moves. Of course, this story ends, as they all do, with the shooter getting killed. Afterwards, news agencies rush to the campus; if it bleeds, it leads. TV screens flash hand-wringing families and friends, offer the politicians’ sound-bytes of thoughts and prayers. The next day the sun comes up. A new day. Headlines scream “Gun Control Now!” The next day, we want to know who the shooter was and why he did what he did. By the third day, we worry about Angelina Jolie and Brad Pitt, whether they’ll ever get back together. For the bereft gun-seller, the days are one, long, interminable day. For him, there are no jump-cuts, no “and in other news” transitions. In his heart, he knows his loss is divine retribution, that he’s sacrificed his own flesh and blood for greenbacks. Weapons, bump stocks, bullets in exchange for burnished gold. TV journalists clamor for interviews. But he’s not speaking. Not even to his wife, who finally walks out the door and never looks back. The gun-seller becomes a hermit, lives a miserable life. He gives up his gun business. Still, he keeps an arsenal in his dark basement. Every afternoon he goes out to the field behind his house and aims at a target with the shooter’s image. A marksman, he plugs the kid between the eyes every time. The old oak tree swallows the bullets. Eventually, the gun-seller goes to the basement and fires a pistol into his mouth. They bury him next to his daughter. The oak tree lives on, pushes up new green, tender limbs between the seeds of lead.

 


DS Levy’s writing has been published in the Alaska Quarterly Review, Columbia, New Flash Fiction Review, Little Fiction, Brevity, The Pinch, and others. Her collection of flash fiction, A Binary Heart, was published in 2017 by Finishing Line Press.

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Questions for My Shooter

By Abby E. Murray

 

Which of my relatives
will point out how
I was raised humanely,
in a house with a yard
where I could pick
blueberries I grew myself
or sit on a blanket in the grass
when it was warm?
And who will tell them
that’s good because it was,
the humane life, I mean—
how I had constant
opportunities to play
or nest or use my voice,
how I carried myself
into spaces I believed
were beyond assault?
Who will ask whether
the shot was clean,
whether I suffered,
whether I was harvested
responsibly afterward,
my blood stretched far
as a rainy day envelope
or my daughter’s love?
Will the shooting be
diagnosed as a symptom
of Bad Day Disorder
or Disappointment Fever?
Will it be the opposite
of having died in vain?
Sweetheart—may I call you that?
you will, after all,
be the last to change me—
how long will I survive
after we meet?

 


Abby E. Murray is the editor of Collateral, a literary journal publishing work concerned with the impact of violent conflict and military service beyond the combat zone. She is the poet laureate for the city of Tacoma, Washington, where she teaches community workshops for veterans, civilians, military families, and undocumented youth. Her first book, Hail and Farewell, won the Perugia Press Poetry Prize and will be released in September 2019.

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Myna Chang writes flash and short stories in a variety of genres. Her work has been featured in Daily Science Fiction, The Copperfield Review, and Dead Housekeeping, among others. Read more at mynachang.com.

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Fine People

By Paul Colton

Based on Martin Niemöller’s confession-turned-poem, “First they came …”

 

First a fine man killed six Sikhs in a Wisconsin temple
but Republicans did not act
because they’re not Sikhs

Then a fine man murdered black worshippers in Charleston
but Republicans did not act
because they’re not black

Then a fine man ran down counter-protestors in Charlottesville
but Republicans did not act
because they’re not lefties

Then a fine man slaughtered 11 Jews praying in Pittsburgh
but Republicans did not act
because they’re not Jews

Then a fine man assassinated Hispanics in an El Paso Walmart
but Republicans will not act decisively
because they’re not Hispanic

Soon fine people will come for pale-skinned moderates
but then it will be too late to stifle
their seething hate and assault rifles

 


Paul Colton has been writing about life’s vagaries for thirty-plus years. His poetry and essays have appeared in more than 75 magazines, literary journals, and poetry anthologies, including The Literary Hatchet, The Satirist, and The Moon magazine.

Photo credit: Christopher Althouse Cohen via a Creative Commons license.

Dear Mitch

By Alicia Cerra Waters

 

My mother found Jesus.
He was on sale at the Walmart
in El Paso.
Mom is on a budget because
no one pays her any money
to play pretend.
When she prays
to the plastic Jesus
with a ninety nine cent sticker
cemented to the back of his robes
at least she means it.

 


Alicia Cerra Waters is a writer and educator. She lives with her husband and son.

Good Mourning, America

By Kit-Bacon Gressitt

 

It’s eighth-grade writing class day and the weekly morning jaunt to my favorite little school, nestled in a rural Southern California valley. Here, the water table’s level prevents developers from bulldozing nurseries and groves, and there’s still a farmer’s grange. A canopy of Live Oaks shades my drive to the school, where the children of immigrants are the dominant demographic. My child went to school here, transferred from our very-white hometown, so she’d no longer speak disparagingly of the Latinx kids on the playground. She didn’t understand back then that she’s one of them.

Today, my students are learning to make notecards for a research paper on climate change. The assigned article that challenges their English can no longer be found on the U.S. Environmental Protection Agency’s website.

“What did you all find most surprising about the article?” I ask.

“That the U.S. is the second biggest producer of greenhouse gasses that cause global warming,” one of them answers.

The students are smart. Smart and so young and hopeful. All but two or three of them want to attend college. They all have plans for the future. Here, in the United States.

They finish up their notecards.

“‘Heat stress is the leading cause of weather-related death in the Southwest, and heat waves are increasing in frequency and intensity.’ That’s a direct quote combined with a paraphrase,” a student says.

“Nice work! Now, before I go, let’s talk about the homework for next week. Please complete—”

An alarm blasts.

“We have to stop,” the classroom teacher says fast and loud. “That’s our emergency response signal. Everyone, under your desks, away from the windows. Quick. Nope, leave your stuff. Get down now. Manuel, I can see your head. Rosa, you’re visible from the window. Get under the desk—under! I don’t want to have to say it again.”

It’s an active shooter drill.

The signal blares while I tuck my laptop into my briefcase, and down the dregs of my coffee. The students are giggling, sprawled on the floor—the perfect opportunity to make quick contact with the objects of their desires. The teacher tells them to cool their jets.

“Okeydoke, nice work today, everyone,” I say. “See you all next week.”

There’s more giggling as I leave. The alarm continues pulsing danger. I hear it—feel it—on the way to my car.

•   •   •

It’s another day, a Sunday, my writing day. But I can’t.

Five mass shootings in twenty-four hours.*

  • El Paso: Twenty dead and twenty-six injured. Now that’s twenty-one, now twenty-two.
  • Dayton: Nine dead and twenty-seven injured.
  • Memphis: One dead and three injured.
  • Chicago: None killed but seven injured.
  • Chicago: One dead and seven injured.

Numbers and names and the detritus of lives litter parking lots and store aisles and nightclubs and theaters and playgrounds and schools. Shootings are linked to hate websites, to Donald Trump, to manifestos, to mental illness, to familial discord, to immigration, to feminism, to news media, to the grotesque availability of guns.

So I wonder.

Which of my students will I be able to save when we have our school shooting?

How many of their heads will I be able to shove under desks before they are seen?

How many of their young bodies will expire in pools of blood, their cries for their mothers interrupted?

Will I die with them?

I wonder, because today, in this nation, with this president, with this Congress, with this NRA gun lobby, it feels inevitable.

* https://www.gunviolencearchive.org/reports/mass-shooting


K-B’s narrative nonfiction, commentary, political fiction, book reviews and author features have been published in Evening Street Review and Evening Street PressNot My President: The Anthology of Dissent (Thoughtcrime Press, December 2017), Publishers WeeklyDucts magazine, The Missing SlateTrivia: Feminist VoicesMs. Magazine blog, North County Times, Gay San Diego, and others. She is the publisher and a founding editor of Writers Resist, and teaches Women’s, Gender, and Sexuality Studies in the Cal State University system. Read more of her work at ExcuseMeImWriting.com.

Editor’s note: The Trump in Guns photo was allegedly posted by one of the shooters on 8chan.

Fourteen Reasons to Love America the Beautiful

By Tori Cárdenas

 

  1. Worn flags fall and burn / as bumper stickers / beer cans /
    boardshorts / truck nuts / red visors and head coverings /
    and hearts purple-swelling with pride / beneath twisted
    knuckles
  2. Paint your storm windows / with razor wire / and the
    blessed blood of the unborn / seal out / pungent spices and
    peppers / from your doorways / restrooms / defend your
    borders
  3. It is her fault / their fault / his fault / someone else’s
    problem / Reduce to the common denominator / it is the
    restaurant on the corner / serving anything but a burger and
    fries
  4. Bring your boots / your pipes / your fatigues / bring them
    into the town square / to wage war on people who call it a
    ‘plaza’ / no room for foreign shit here / isolation is survival
  5. Grab ’em by the pussy / treat ’em like shit / fuck their
    daughters / they’re begging you / unless their chests are flat /
    those ain’t the raping kind / lock them up / uptight lesbians
  6. Circle one: true or false / if follow-up: false / if red: true /
    false: blue / no news: good news / the best news / no news
    to speak of here: true / not: false / don’t read all that fake
    shit
  7. They’re bringing drugs / they’re bringing rape / they’re
    bringing crime / and sin and pestilence and parasites / Gas
    their children begging at the nation’s bottom / and fuel the
    swampy top
  8. And yea, the Lord said, “Shoot the snowflakes / the
    women / the children with brown skin / for they displease
    your Lord God Almighty / on his golden Mar-a-Lago”
  9. Cover your assets / for the end times are coming / store
    your gold beneath the eaglet down of your pillows / when
    your coffers runneth empty / a street of walls will meet you
  10. You can survive on nothing / you’re still buying SPAM,
    aren’t you / what about the dollar menu / it may not nourish
    your cells to overthrow this epidemic / but you can still
    make us money
  11. It’s all a hoax / this climate shit / make it warmer / so we
    can bust heads on the beach / blow up the schoolhouses /
    teacher bullshit / gimme a pencil / sos I can black there eyes
    out
  12. Bring back the hanging / decorations / bamboo shoots are
    the new manicure / Full page ads of black brown blue
    babies / withered elders / toss them into the rivers / erase
    them
  13. Hey bro / got a job for you / the boss lets us drink and fuck
    anything we want / don’t forget your golf clubs / got a seat
    for you right here / with a guzzler helmet / and two cold
    Coors Lights
  14. Vote / your voice matters / we’re listening / psst / we want
    to know what you think / it’s your right / pass the earplugs /
    you fought for it / don’t you want it anymore / pussies /

 


Poetry editor Tori Cárdenas is a queer Tainx/Latinx poet from Northern New Mexico. In 2014, she graduated from the University of New Mexico with a dual Bachelor of Arts degree in History and English, with a concentration in Poetry. She returned to UNM in Fall 2017 to earn her MFA in Fiction. She served as Blue Mesa Review‘s 2018-2019 Poetry Editor, and serves currently as the 2019-2020 Editor-in-Chief. Tori’s work has appeared in Conceptions Southwest, VICE, Pantheon MagazineWriters Resist online journal, and Writers Resist: The Anthology 2018, and it has been nominated for the Best of the Net anthology and a Pushcart Prize. Her works were also featured as finalists in the 2018 and 2019 Rabbit Catastrophe Press Really Good Poem Prize contests. Tori lives with her dog Sophie in Albuquerque, New Mexico.

Editor’s note: The photo of the U.S. flag pistol is used for purposes of noncommercial commentary, satire, and education under the Fair Use Doctrine.

 

What Then?

By Kathy Lundy Derengowski

 

And what if the next
crazed school-shooter
is the security officer,
with a long gun
and a long memory
and a short temper,
who is tired of smart-ass kids
who call him “rent-a-cop”
and mock his lumbering swagger?
What if one too many of them
have flipped him off,
and his wife just left him
for another man or woman
and his credit card is maxed out
and his own children never call?
What then?

 


Kathy Lundy Derengowski is a native of San Diego County. She is an active member and co-facilitator of the Lake San Marcos Writer’s Workshop. Her work has appeared in Summation, the ekphraisis anthology of the Escondido Arts Partnership, California Quarterly, Silver Birch Press, Autumn Sky Daily, Turtle Light Press, and the Journal of Modern Poetry. She has won awards from the California State Poetry Society and been a finalist in the San Diego Book Awards poetry chapbook category. She has been a guest blogger on Trish Hopkinson’s site.

Photo by Jose Alonso on Unsplash.

That One Time My Best Friend Destroyed the World

By Avra Margariti

 

She goes from gun-shy to
trigger-happy
in a single breath.
That honest sun-smile
nestles in my chest
while she obliterates the world
as we know it.
She’s a rare, delicate bird
perched on the last tree of Earth
watching everything turn to
ash.

Bell jar, birdcage, formaldehyde—
everyone wants to capture her for their
post-apocalyptic
collection.

I go near her
and get a mouthful of
fire and brimstone.
Are you going to destroy the world? I ask.
Yes, she says. By making them

              l  i  s  t  e  n

 


Avra Margariti is a queer Social Work undergrad from Greece. She enjoys storytelling in all its forms and writes about diverse identities and experiences. Her work has appeared in Wolfpack Press, The Writing District, Dime Show Review, and Page & Spine.

Photo credit: Mark Turnauckas via a Create Commons license.

Malice in Four Thoughts

By Bruce Robinson

 

They didn’t see it coming
(how could they?)

And then it rained, rained
and we weren’t witness

so we can only surmise
that the days grew shorter

and who’s to say that clocks
could demonstrate a direction

and there was nothing
one could do about it

(which is what we did)

 


Recent work by Bruce Robinson appears or is forthcoming in Mobius, Fourth River/Tributaries, Pangyrus, Blueline, and the Beautiful Cadaver social justice anthology.

“Malice in Four Thoughts” was previously published by Indolent Books’ What Rough Beast.

Photo by Jeremy Thomas on Unsplash.

Pompeii

By Jennifer Hernandez

 

When the water finally
breaches the dam,
long after empty hollows,
long after parched ground,
even after all is well,
the deluge doesn’t stop,

becomes a train,
careens through the station,
passengers left behind
on platforms, watching,

like the citizens of Pompeii
as ash rains down
from the mountain,
peaceful exterior
having hidden
the burbling stew
inside her belly.

When she blew,
it seemed so sudden,
like the breached dam,
the runaway train.

In retrospect,
there are always signs.

 


Jennifer Hernandez lives in Minnesota where she teaches immigrant youth and writes poetry, flash, and creative nonfiction. Much of her recent writing has been colored by her distress at what she reads in her daily news feed. Work can be found in such publications as New Verse NewsRadical Teacher, Rise Up Review, and Writers Resist. She is working on a chapbook of hybrid writing about teaching as a political act.

Photo credit: Dr. Wendy Longo via a Creative Commons license.

Tallent Neal’s Hungry Belly

By Ron L. Dowell

 

You’re on Compton City Hall’s council chambers steps, a fist-sized Black Lives Matter button pinned conspicuously on your t-shirt, your belly distending and nearly blocking out Congresswoman Imelda Herrera and obscenely stretching Elizabeth Eckford’s 1957 photo that’s on your tee. Elizabeth’s lovely brown face is downcast, looking cautiously through dark sunglasses, clutching her books, wearing a white cotton piqué over her petticoat, in stylishly pressed hair curls, keeping ahead of Hazel Bryan and legions of other whites whose mouths seethe and follow her with venomous, nullifying words, their minds filled with imagined superiority on Eckford’s first day at Little Rock’s Central High School.

Your iPhone selfie tells the story.

Far right is Turner, teen mentor, researcher, prison guard. He exhibits a picture of young Emmett Till lying in his casket, body swollen, teeth missing, ear severed. At sixty-three, stomach tumors forced you to retire your dustpan and broom. Your gut burns like a fire whirl. Your abdomen knots and twists into closed fists and forces words up your throat. “Same old shit,” you say to diminutive Congresswoman Herrera’s wide eyes on this early spring evening. She smells of Chanel and, in full 2018 campaign mode, postures between you and Turner.

Years ago, you made yourself a promise to never allow you a belly like your daddy lugged around—one full of hog maws, potatoes, and greasy chicken. At seventy-five, he died from too much blood pressure and sugar, a supersized prostate.

Turner’s gut matches yours but for this shot he sucks it in and angles his Shoot the Police t-shirt toward the camera. You don’t because you can’t. You turn slightly toward Herrera.

“Tallent Neal and I will support you,” Turner says to her.

“Good luck,” you say. She heads inside.

“Man,” you say to Turner. “I never noticed how big my gut’s grown. I look six months pregnant.” You’d assumed based on four to five days a week gym time that you looked pretty svelte for a graybeard. No.

“Damn,” Turner says. “I thought my stomach was fat.”

When did your body change?

“Forget it. We have what we came for,” he says. “Can you upload it to Facebook?”

“I think I’ll up the cardio,” you say.

Burdened by protest signs and the heavy Killer Cops banner, you and Turner squeeze through crowds into the council chambers. Four-by-ten feet, the canvas standard is a stark optical showing killer police agencies, names and ages of people murdered in Los Angeles County since 2005. Not long ago, you’d nailed it up at the rear, next to the public entry doors in perfect view of council members from the dais. You considered that an act of free speech. The mayor considered it public property defacement. She called you a vandal, had sheriff deputies snatch down your banner, grip your upper arm, and escort you outside. Deputies said you tripped and fell on damp pavement. You said that you were shoved. They threw the banner your way and said, “Next time we’ll arrest you for trespassing.”

You’re back. Having, at nineteen, acquired a felony conviction from back in the day, you don’t really want to face another judge, but this is a campaign rally, not a council meeting, so officials aren’t present, no deputies visible. Whew! You’re lightheaded with an unexpected release of tension.

You and Turner hang the banner, stand on each end of it with signs. Yours reads, “Black Lives Matter—Stop Killing Us.” Turner’s says, “What if We Shoot Back—with cameras?”

The chamber overflows, eyes focusing on your banner, riveting to your signs. You switch the sign from hand to hand but still your arms tire. You set it down and lean on the stick like it’s a cane. That won’t work so you hoist it up and rest the stick in the folds of your belly, which seems to have grown over the past several minutes. You sigh. Like a tent pole, it fits within pudgy gut creases, holds fast, the fit, perfect. You wave your hands around, move your feet, do old school dances, the Jerk, the Swim, then you Twerk. You enjoy communal energy and shout, “Black Lives Matter.” Turner follows, “Shoot the police.”

In front of the dais, Congresswoman Herrera looks startled by your display. Into the microphone she says, “It’s true that black lives do matter and there are far too many black and brown men killed by police.” Still, she’s a politician and modifies the subject. “That’s why I advocate a ban on assault weapons—I’ll eliminate bump stocks—we’ll put metal detectors in all schools, require lockdown drills.”

The audience is silent until someone shouts. “Hell, yeah!”

A sheriff’s deputy peeks in. Chest tight, you breathe faster. Your belly, acting on its own, bounces the sign up and down, waves it side to side, forcing words from your gut, despite your resistance, up to and through your esophagus, to your mouth, “Off the pigs,” you shout.

Two sleepless days later, your belly gurgles and protrudes from underneath your navy blue county jail shirt. Court’s spilling over with defendants at your preliminary hearing. Their supporters and victims clamor for seats. Turner’s waving his ‘Free Tallent Neal’ sign.

Pasty-faced Judge Hardass is on the bench, smiling smugly and broadly like a lion about to pounce on an antelope. His eyeballs linger on your belly, as if he knows something that you don’t, signaling that maybe he’s already decided your fate, finally asking after a long, uncomfortable moment, “How do you plead?”

You turn to your portly public defender who, in bright red bowtie, mouths, guilty. He’d promised the plea deal would get you thirty days jail time plus probation. That’s easy for him say. He doesn’t get strip searched or have to walk with his back to walls to avoid shanks or hard dick attacks. The pit of your ever-expanding gut feels empty. You mumble “Fuck you” to him.

Hardass says, “Speak up, Mr. Neal.”

The DA says to the judge, “He has priors, sir.”

The crowd hushes when the bailiff eases over, clutching the Taser on her equipment belt.

The public defender whispers, “Guilty—say guilty. Unless you raise bail, you’ll stay in jail until trial.”

Mouth dry, you glance at the clock on the wood-paneled wall to the judge’s left. When you turn back, your chest opens. Your lower esophageal sphincter snatches the public defender’s neck and forces him into your stomach, where he’s attacked by enzymes that especially like fatty foods. “Say guilty,” he says again before he dissolves into chyme. The bailiff reaches to pull him out, but is also swallowed by your burgeoning belly. Gut flora breaks them down and digests them both. Your liver and pancreas send juices to help push them into your large intestine as shit.

The DA’s eyes widen, Hardass smashes his gavel, “Order,” he says. “Order!”

Even if you’re in jail, who’s going to mess with someone with a hungry belly?

You say, “Scuse me, your honor—Black Lives Matter—and I. Ain’t. Guilty.”

 


Ron L. Dowell holds two master’s degrees from California State University Long Beach. In June 2017, he received the UCLA Certificate in Fiction Writing. His short stories have appeared in Oyster Rivers Pages and Stories Through The Ages Baby Boomers Plus 2018. He is a 2018 PEN America Emerging Voices Fellow.

Photo credit: Jorene Rene via a Creative Commons license.

 

 

 

Farewell and Welcome!

Laura Orem is retiring after almost two years as one of our dedicated volunteer poetry editors. Farewell, Laura!

While we’ll miss Laura—and her sense of humor—we’re delighted to welcome our newest poetry editor, Tori Cárdenas.

Tori is a queer Tainx/Latinx poet from Northern New Mexico. In 2014, she graduated from the University of New Mexico with a dual Bachelor of Arts degree in History and English, with a concentration in Poetry. She returned to UNM in Fall 2017 to earn her Master’s of Fine Arts in Fiction. She served as Blue Mesa Review’s 2018-2019 Poetry Editor, and serves currently as the 2019-2020 Editor-in-Chief.

Tori’s work has appeared in Conceptions Southwest, VICE, Pantheon Magazine, Writers Resist online journal, and Writers Resist: The Anthology 2018, and it has been nominated for the Best of the Net anthology and a Pushcart Prize. Her works have also been featured as finalists in the 2018 and 2019 Rabbit Catastrophe Press Really Good Poem Prize contests.

Tori lives with her dog Sophie in Albuquerque, New Mexico. Please join us in welcoming Tori—and celebrating her poem. …

White

upon buying a new car for visibility, practicality, and functionality,

the car and insurance salesmen convince me white is the best color—

it’s functional, keeping it clean is as easy as keeping the dust off of it.

at night, you will be easy to see, less likely to get pulled over or questioned,

folks will stop to help you with flats on the shoulder. on long road trips,

bugs splatter every color across your grille, red and brown and yellow—

won’t it be pretty

 

Manifesto

By John C. Mannone

 

We are desperate for life
to be found outside our
comfortable homes here
on this planet. We send
messengers to the outer
reaches of our solar system
—robots with test tube eyes
see 200 atom-heavy molecules
on Saturn’s Enceladus
geysering from a subsurface
ocean, icy plumes feathered
with biochemistry—life
essential molecules speaking
no words, only facts.
Our conjecture is at least
as clear as political banter.
We are experts at posturing—
made of many chemicals
much bigger than those
and laddered with the right
codes for human engagement,
though some links are missing.

We search for simple life
elsewhere, yet we cannot
coexist among ourselves
without destroying everything
we have.

 


Author’s Note: Inspired by the June 27, 2018 breaking news, “Complex Organic Molecules Discovered on Enceladus For The First Time: It has everything needed to host alien life!” by Michelle Starr. The original work is cited in Nature, “Macromolecular organic compounds from the depths of Enceladus,” volume 558, pages 564–568 (2018).

John C. Mannone has poems in Artemis Journal, Poetry SouthBlue Fifth Review, Peacock Journal, Baltimore Review, Pedestal, New England Journal of Medicine, Intima, Annals of Internal Medicine and others. He’s a Jean Ritchie Fellowship winner in Appalachian literature (2017) and served as Celebrity Judge for the National Federation of State Poetry Societies (2018). He has three poetry collections and has been nominated for Pushcart, Rhysling, Dwarf Stars and Best of the Net awards. He edits poetry for Abyss & ApexSilver Blade, and Liquid Imagination. He’s a professor of physics near Knoxville, TN. Follow him on Facebook and at The Art of Poetry.